Only day 1 and i'm already feeling the emptiness. Hai. Hopefully time will fly before i know it, and more packed ang pows will fly into my palm this coming CNY. (The ang moh boss is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy more generous than our own GM! :x)

Hopefully in a few years' time, i will be able to receive ang pows from people around settling down. :)

U better make up for it! >_<

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Probably cos the suggested method makes me feel conscious, mean, and scared and scarred..

I'm tired.

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I sick and tired of being independent, though proud of it in a sense. But i wanna be spoilt, not by myself. My own efforts. It's.. Exhausting.

Seeing the attitude she'd taken, i bet she's really under alot of stress and emotional turmoil which noone understands. The new wedded life she isn't accustomed to, stress induced by CHILDish in-laws, and the husband who sides his parents. How lonely she must feel, away from home, away from her comfort zone, and despised for being herself. Honestly, is there a need to rush a couple who has only been married for 1 month? It is a horror, to impose beliefs of the older generation onto Gen Y. Despite taking drastic actions against family and frens, she must be feeling the ache and confusion clouded her right now.

As i look at the situations around, esp the closest one, my heart started to bleed. I know i would rather die, than to be subjected to this kind of mental torture. And perhaps, they are much braver than i am.

It is time to accept the fact that your children will grow up and leave your side one day. So, don't keep them by your side..

It's not easy to be. I am really awed of your resolve and ability to stick through all these, over the 20 odd years in that horrible hell, and still manage to remember my love for milk teas.

Love.

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I honestly dislike being lectured. (Yes, i know my stubbornness has no end. Blame it on my horoscope.) The worse is, knowing that the lecturer actually doesn't follow his own teachings. Well, to a certain extent, i do that as well. But, shdn't you be more understanding, esp when u face the same problem of giving in to temptation as well? That it isn't easy to change overnight?

Thus, i deem it impossible for me, if it's impossible for u as well. It applies to all aspects. Again, dun qn me. Things are pretty bleak, and i do not wish to encounter a cold blanket. Yes, i'm pretty pissed recently, with all the bad luck and all. It's coming, i bet. Will try to cover this entry up with a ridiculously happy entry b4 CNY, if possible, ever.

Reading Twilight actually made me feel like a klutz. Or however u spell it. I can literally feel myself being more self-conscious n aware, and clumsy at the same time. I hope reading from Bella's perspective is non-infectious, and she will not rub off her really bad luck, bad mood, and bad coordination on me. :S

You know, when you go to sleep without washing up, an EXTRA line will appear underneath your eyes. Geez. :S


I vowed that I will start anew. Silently, of course..
And I hope I'm not the only one.

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