Mind feels frozen;
Mind can't think.

How do people resolve issues of that calibre?

Not gonna break down again, not gonna.
I hope.
So speaking out isn't what is wanted.
I turned around n bit myself.

Perhaps all humans simply want to hear what they really want to,
and not real feelings of someone else's.

And thus i shall stress,
no one will understand unless they are me.

Don't judge,
don't judge..

Labels: .., confused

3 posts in a day. How nostalgic. Haven done this in a long time.

On such a hot day, in spite of bathing for like 1+ hrs, i still can feel hot n sweaty. But despite it all, whenever thoughts began flowing, i feel cold. So cold, i shivered.

Who should i blame for all these?

God, for making humans this way? So unique, So emotional, so clever? To have needs, wants, entertainment, curiosity, attachments.

Humans, for making society this way? Setting up rules, creating barriers and making judgments? Education, friends, family, age, dos, don'ts, stereotypes. So complicated.

Myself, for having the ability to analyze and imagine? To make comparisons from experience, think of possible scenarios, and not be bounded by rules? Being shaped to be competitive isnt advantageous after all. Can i ever free myself from this horrible curse?

Why does society have to evolve and leave me so broken? If I lived in stone age, i probably won't be left so confused and hurt now. Why are we bounded? Why cant we do whatever we want?

I can smile, but how long can it last?

Save me. Chocolate please.

If only one can have no needs..
If only one can focus on simply oneself..
If only one can be satisfied easily..

Let me imagine myself in a world of bliss.. That is, the only way to get me through..

Labels: confused, thoughts