Endorphins are endogenous opioid polypeptide compounds. They are produced by the pituitary gland and the hypothalamus in vertebrates during strenuous exercise,excitement, and orgasm,and they resemble the opiates in their abilities to produce analgesia and a sense of well-being. Endorphins work as "natural fever relievers", whose effects may be enhanced by other medications. --Wiki

Cos i've been in the extreme end in the past few hours, my mind had to distract itself cos my body doesn have enuf fluids already. Thus this word came up. My, my, it's such fun researching about things which interests u, and to find out about certain facts which left u feeling 'oh!'!

10 Ways ToTrigger Your Feel-Good Chemicals. -- This link will explain a little bit on the points i'm gonna address.

Eat a chili pepper:
Err.. I still wanna preserve my tongue so that i can enjoy drinking the in peace. Taking spicy stuff will induce tears and mucus as well, eww.

Think positive thoughts:
Hmm. Apparently all my positive thoughts come from being evil or smth, so will that turn me into a psychopath? Well, knowing that there are so many ways to make one happier, makes me feel happy. Heehee. But most positive thoughts of mine involves getting triumphant over someone else! =X

Work out:
I should go for an exercise one day.. Like, next year or smth :S Once i'm freer. Yeah. Ok fineeeee. Once i become not so lazy, k?!?! I thought i was a sadist, but i was wrong. It's runner's high! And perhaps i still am one.

Have an orgasm:
:O We cant blame one for feeling horny, can we?!?! This seems to have the highest endorphin factor anw. Just rmb to protect yourself. How about a few at 1 go to make yourself happier? Btw, bright light stimulates orgasms. Excuse while i turn on the lights. Well, its getting dark n i'm alone..

Undergo acupuncture:
This one is for sadists, like me i suppose.

Chow chocolate:
Nooooo wonder i've been chomping on the chocs! It's like, the only thing i'm relying on to produce more endorphins at this moment! I'm still not willing to give up choc for a better figure! No means no. Bleh. No wonder i couldn't resist getting some expensive chocs ytd, despite having this need to save. Oh noes, i'm hungry already.

Be afraid:
I've found my mama. This really explains my love for horror movies and amusement rides. ONE of my life mysteries have been solved.

Catch a few rays:
No wonder i've been trying to stand outside in the middle of working. Like a sunflower searching for its source of life. And despite wearing a thick sweater.

Have a giggle fit:
I shall watch some 偶像剧 to laugh and cry, after i finish with this post. @_@


Well, well, now u cant blame me for being so depressed right! From all my lacks! :( I hope that my glands are working well, and not something to disable me from feeling happy. T.T

Shall not think about things which may happen in the future. Shall blame the other party once proven wrong. Shall not stay on and torture myself if that happens. Shall forget. Shall move on.

Only if it happens accordingly. Now, i shall try n distract myself. It's coming back! Argh. But i shd start on my show. Hai.. Oh well.

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Let me vent my frustrations.

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QWERTY!

Gahhhh

I hate myself for being useless. I cant even do what i want?!?! I have to be dictated by some idiot who can do it whenever he wants to?! I finally remembered the reason i detest going home. Or perhaps despise.

It's tough explaining. Ppl look at u from their narrow views, and judge if u r right or wrong. But without wearing those pairs of shoes, they will never be able to truly comprehend. No wonder i chose to kept it to myself all these while.

$ is the root of all evil. But in the future, they will be under my damn control.

Argh, headache, 3rd time in 24 hrs. Zzz.

On a side note, pardon me for my lack of control over my emotions..

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The temptation to skip class yet again, for the 4th time out of a total of 4, is irresistible.
Especially when you are supported n understood.

I wanna go home! :(

I really wonder how 20th century boys is gonna be squeezed into a trilogy.
Tooooo much details!

It's a miracle if i can survive today. ):

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Of this world.

On the way back home from blood donation, me n Julie saw these 2 boys on the train. Shdnt be more than 15 years old imo. They were so pushy n touchy n so within our view, i kept looking at Julie so that i wouldnt puke.

In some random stop one of them actually got a seat. What a mistake. The seated one leaned fwd with his head down to rest, and the other was making 'noises'. Cos his head is sort of near his crotch, he exclaimed: BJ.

Eeeeeeeek! Arghhhhhh. My young n innocent mind!

(Discovery: I might get aroused by cats rubbing their tail body against my calf.)

Took mc today. Yes. AGAIN. While trying to take my afternoon nap, i had sudden bouts of chest pains. Stabbing ones. They were near my heart, of cos i'm worried bout it. I mean, i can like die out of the blue. So i went to the polyclinic. Waited for like 1hr 5mins. Zzz. Did the routine questioning, and she checked on me. She touched my breasts!!!!! I feel so violated. But she says i'm ok, n appears to be suffering from no problems, n claimed that everyone else experiences these kind of pain from time to time. Well but she shd still be cautious cos many ppl r dying of a sudden, regardless of age.

Sometimes i rather have some illness or whatever. At least when i leave the world, i know the reason.

Seeing a 2 year old toddler at the clinic stirs my maternal instinct. She's sooooo cute! Ooh when her grandma wanted to walk her to the toilet, she was so reluctant n almost cried! :( N like all babies, she opened her arms! (Which reminds me.. @_@) N her grandma carried her up! :) The only memory i can recall are the timeS my mum refused to carry me (or i'll be too reliant). No wonder! T.T

If i had a daughter, i'l dress her up n take lots of pictures n hug her to bits!
If i had a son, i'l probably throw him to his father or smth..

Grab it now, or it'll be gone.

What happened in the above generation doesn't mean it will happen to me, right? Right?

Perhaps i've been lacking it too much, hence i've been trying to nourish myself from your share, and in the process, sucking you dry, so dry, that u shriveled.

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I dunno. Y can't i have a normal life, like everyone else? Yes i'm jealous. Can i turn this into strength? No idea, i simply feel like shriveling up in a corner right now. The shelter i've been under all these while, is tattered and torn, and i cant stay for long. The only thing you can truly rely on is yourself. Where can i ever seek solace? Perhaps comparison is one thing i shd stop doing.

When u see the lack of coherency, it means i'm not thinking straight already.

The usual boring cycle starts once again, tmr.
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Today i got my life drained out of me. Yes. My very own flesh & blood! Argh. It's supposed to be a noble thing. But it turned out to be full of black and blues. And swells. Gah.

So noob! The needle actually turned halfway thru the draining of blood. The machine stopped and all the person could do was to ask me to squeeze the tomato. (Oh yes we got a tomato for stress ball! Heehee.) I din squeeze cos its damn pain can. Grr. They had to turn the needle again so that the blood can flow out properly! Poor arm! It's damn hard now lor. And it's my right arm! $!@#%@#^ Tsk.

But i shall never stop saving lives just cos of bad personnel. At least the blood test person was good la. Hur.

Time for tv!

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