I need a break! Is $ really worth all this mental torture?!

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After soaking in the rain, not a single sliver of concern was shown. Instead, sarcasm followed. How nice. So my well-being is less of importance than your convenience? I shd have ran out n banged the buses. At least i wun have to face whatever i had to after that. Even in the shelter, i was alr sprayed by rain. I can see how much u 'care' about me.

This sucks. U might as well kill me directly and be done with. I no longer am significant. U were disappointed. But im hurt. N i put up with it. Till the point that i couldnt take the time wastage anymore. Cold n unwell n thirsty n tired n depressed to be exact. U? Forget it. I have nth to say.

I cant see it anymore.

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Decided to try and get my tracks back on blogging, in order to liven up my dead brain. Seriously, i cant even find the right words to rightfully express how i feel. Gosh. For now i'm not busy as yet, n so for now i shd try n meet up with frens n such. Before my life turns to hell due to the calls made by customers n agents. Hope they wun get theirs hands on my #!

Sigh. Nth to talk about alr. I'm like seiously very short fused. Last time my mind used to think in swirls n whirls. Now? I lack depth. Like seriously. I'm so excited! Today's supposed to be the release of Dan Brown's latest book!!!!! I've been waiting la! Thought he wouldn't ever write again after earning so much from the previous series. Then again i forgot to visit Popular to find out about the books or wad. What if it's sold out!? Hope it wun be released today. :S

Back to work.

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Over smth so insignificant.. How nice.

Bad things dun come alone, indeed. 3 Hs.

Gd thing u dun have to be so plagued by hormones, huh?

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Hate this uncertainty.

I'M JUST LAZY. AND BROKE. AND SLIGHTLY DISCOURAGED.

My own house plagues me to no end! The damned smell from leaving laundry, that roach(es) which keeps appearing.. Seriously, is home meant to be that way? I seriously feel damn trapped by the amount of time i have to stay here. 5 yrs? 10? if we could all start over from 0, i would nv ever let it be like that. it's becoming dreadful.

The many changes i see seriously scares me, n i wonder if we will turn out to be like them. Many of them. I have not seen any who stayed true till death. There's noone to look up to, no one at all. It's getting scary, and if it's my turn, i wun be able to take it. Not now. This is probably the only thing i will hope for in my life, to entrust it to a superior being whom might not exist. Please never let it be.

Im seriously traumatised and disgrunted. Ever since the start of this cycle, i have been losing my temper easily. I hope this pass by quickly. Eek.

I seriously hope and wish that UP will cheer me up tmr. Or later. Probably i shdn wear white. Hmm.

Sigh.. Been getting unpleasant dreams nowadays.. 2 consecutive dreams trying to convince me that things indeed happened, and another today telling me almost exact same things, just diff versions. Have i slept too much?

Maybe i shdn ever sleep again.

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I'm going to blog soon. Like, when procrastination stops possessing me. :X

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